As soon as Ning Bei got home, he saw Ning Nan rolling on the sofa laughing hysterically.
Ning Bei hung his head between his knees and closed his eyes.
He actually knew that he should have said “Got it”, and at most added “Be careful on the road”.
He should have ended this conversation.
But at some point, a clump of flames burst out in his heart, burning his heart, making him unable and unwilling to let go completely like this.
“Nan Xia.” He called out.
The other end of the phone was obviously quiet for a moment, “What’s the matter, Xiao Bei.”
Ning Bei buried his eyes in the palm of his hand, he couldn’t see anything, so he seemed to be fearless.
“Let me go with you. We can eat outside at noon.”
“We might be eating a little later than usual.”
“It’s okay, I’ll wait for you. I’ll go downstairs now.”
After Ning Bei finished speaking, he hung up the phone.
When he walked out of the bedroom, Ning Nan asked him where he was going. Ning Bei lowered his head to put on his shoes, and said in a deep voice, “Go out for lunch.”
Ning Nan was about to speak again when he suddenly saw Ning Bei look up at him: “Brother, I know.”
Ning Bei pocketed his keys and mobile phone, and paused a second after pushing the door out, “This is the last time.”
When he went downstairs, Nan Xia was still talking to that man. Ning Bei walked to Nan Xia’s side.
“Let’s go.”
Nan Xia was slightly taken aback.
She looked sideways at Ning Bei, under the bright sunlight, his face looked too fair, even pale.
He didn’t look at her when he spoke, but bent down slightly and looked at the ground in front of him.
The black eyelashes cast a shadow under the eyes, but it could not conceal the chillness in his voice.
“Xiao Bei, are you feeling well?” Nan Xia asked beside him.
Ning Bei turned his head to look at her, shook his head, and said nothing.
“It’s fine for Chen Fei and I to go, why don’t I go to your house for dinner tonight?” Nan Xia faintly sensed that Ning Bei was unhappy because of what happened just now, so she didn’t want Ning Bei to follow her like this.
She seemed to have complicated things.
Originally, she had planned to let things develop because Nan Xia did find that she had some special feelings for Ning Bei. But now, she wants to stop the loss in time. She wants to keep a proper distance when she can’t give Ning Bei a clear response yet, but just the words “neighbor’s younger brother” had caused Ning Bei to react like this.
Nan Xia’s eyes turned back to the front, she folded her arms unconsciously, and her face became serious.
She is different from Ning Bei.
It’s not that Nan Xia can’t accept falling in love with Ning Bei, but if she and Ning Bei are together now, then Nan Xia can guarantee that she can only give three points of her true feelings, and the remaining seven points will depend on whether she gets along with him.
He was being unreasonably stubborn.
Nan Xia pursed her lips lightly, and then saw that there was not much traffic here, so she told him not to run around and be careful, and then turned around and went in.
While reserving the new time slot with Chen Fei in the restaurant, Nan Xia was a little absent-minded.
She knew that Ning Bei is also an adult, and nothing will happen if he waits outside for a while. But on the other hand, she also clearly felt that Ning Bei was angry.
He insisted on following her stubbornly, but he couldn’t hide the anger in his heart.
He could only punish himself in this way, but it also made Nan Xia feel uneasy.
Inside the restaurant, Chen Fei and Nan Xia called their classmates one by one to ask if the new time was suitable. When Nan Xia made the third call, she couldn’t sit still.
“I have to do something; I’ll be back later.” Nan Xia whispered to Chen Fei’s, then stood up and walked out.
Outside the transparent gate, there are only passing vehicles and pedestrians.
Nan Xia didn’t see Ning Bei and for the first time, felt flustered. She hurried forward and pushed open the door, calling out “Ning Bei——”
Looking sideways, she saw Ning Bei who was standing under the shade of a tree not far away turned his head.
Under the dim shadow, his white T-shirt was blown up by the wind, outlining Ning Bei’s tall but slightly thin figure. The black bangs slightly covered the sharp single eyelid, making his gaze become somewhat distant.
He stood there quietly and did not run to her side like before.
Just stood in the distance.
Nan Xia’s heartbeat accelerated as if she lacked oxygen, and then she also felt a slight loss.
But she quickly adjusted herself.
“Is it hot?” She walked towards Ning Bei, “Just come in with me.”
Ning Bei still shook his head, “Are you done?”
Nan Xia resisted the irritability in her heart: “No, it will take a while.”
“No.” He still persistently refused.
“Come in, it’s not safe outside with all the cars coming and going.”
The wind passed between them, taking away the oxygen they needed to breathe.
The atmosphere became suffocating, making one wants to flee.
She asked clearly, “Ning Bei, are you punishing yourself or me?”
Ning Bei lowered his eyes; Nan Xia’s nose was stained with a thin layer of sweat. At this moment, her eyes were no longer soft as before, but completely cold.
Ning Bei’s heart began to bleed, but he knew in his heart that this was also the last time.
“Punishing myself,” he said.
“Then why did you follow me here?” Nan Xia questioned him, “If you’re punishing yourself, why do you have to follow me here, why do you have to make me feel so uncomfortable?”
Ning Bei was stunned for a moment, and then his heart began to hurt like it was getting stabbed by a knife.
He didn’t do it on purpose, he didn’t mean to make Nan Xia feel uncomfortable.
He just instinctively wanted to stay by Nan Xia’s side, but he didn’t expect to make Nan Xia feel uncomfortable.
“…Why did you follow me?” Ning Bei repeated in a murmur.
In an instant, his eyes began to burn, and he could no longer look directly at Nan Xia.
Ning Bei lowered his head.
Almost instantly, Nan Xia regretted it.
Why was she taking her anger out on Ning Bei; what is she doing?
What kind of answer did she hope Ning Bei would give her?
Nan Xia took a breath silently, she calmed herself down and was about to comfort Ning Bei and apologize to him, but saw Ning Bei suddenly raised his head and looked at her again.
His gaze became very cold, and it seemed as if he was taking a last stand.
The voice was slow and clear, and it rang in Nan Xia’s ears:
“Because I’m cheap.”
Nan Xia froze in shock.
Ning Bei slowly approached Nan Xia, and poured out everything as if giving up on himself: “Why did I follow you? Why did I insist on following you when you clearly said that I was only the younger brother of your neighbor? Nan Xia, didn’t I make it clear enough? I’m cheap, I’m just a dog by your side. When you wave, I run over without a soul, but when you say you don’t want me anymore, I don’t even have the courage to turn around and leave. “
Ning Bei completely lost his mind; his body felt cold and hot all over.
He couldn’t stop his eyes from becoming redder, and his voice began to tremble, “Nan Xia, I also don’t know why I followed you here. I thought I was already eighteen years old and could appear by your side, so I followed you. Tell me, when should I appear by your side? When I was seventeen, sixteen, fifteen or fourteen? I can’t appear when you have a boyfriend, I can’t appear when I’m underage, then Nan Xia, tell me, when can I appear by your side, when can I become more than just a dog that come and go with your command?”
Ning Bei’s voice was like a slap in Nan Xia’s heart, she doesn’t even dare to analyze the meaning of what he just said.
“…Seventeen years old, sixteen years old, fifteen years old…what do you mean?”
Ning Bei let out a low laughter, as if he had surrendered.
“Every Spring Festival you will come to my house to sit for a while. Last year, you told my parents that you performed very well that year and won the highest company year-end award. The year before that, you said that the competition in your new company was very fierce, but fortunately your colleagues are very friendly. The year before that, you were just about to graduate from university, and you asked Ning Nan about finding a job, and the year before, you said that you would travel to Dali with your classmates during the winter vacation…”
The noise on the side of the road became far away, Nan Xia forgot how long she hadn’t taken a breath.
The Ning Bei that was in front of her seemed to have become another person. He cut open his heart and spread its bloody parts in front of her.
As if showing her: Nan Xia, this is the real Ning Bei.
The Ning Bei who loved you for so many years but dared not say anything.
And now, if you want, you can easily destroy him.
“…Nan Xia, that’s it.” Ning Bei raised his hands to cover his eyes, and slowly backed away.
Then, he heard Nan Xia whispered:
“Puppy, take Jiejie home.”
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